PHOTOGRAPHY EXHIBITION

Yeah, hari ni ada photography exhibition dekat danga city mall. Nanay told me about this, and she asked me whether I'm going or not. I can't. Takde transport, and I'm not okay going out with my eyes. Ugh, bored. Lame lagi ke mata macam ni. Well, I can't make it for today. Sedih sangat, takpe, ada lagi la exhibition ni. Okay. So, bile mata I dah okay, kite ronggeng!

I'VE LOST MY APPETITE

My mom cakap, kalau sakit, memang takde selera nak makan. But I lapar. Cuma susah sangat nak makan. I makan bile I nak pun. Dah banyak kali skip meal, sampai kene marah dengan doctor. Bukan diet, but tak boleh nak makan. Tak tahu kenapa. I kena jugak paksa untuk makan, nanti gastric. Cepat la ada balik mood makan. Kalau dah ada mood makan, bukan masa makan pun nak makan. :D

BIG SORRY

YASMIN, 

I'm so sorry about my text and whatever craps. I bukan taknak cakap dengan you pasal benda tu. And I takde niat pun nak bohong ke, apa ke. I just can't tell you about that. Bukan you sorang je yang tak tahu pasal tu. Ramai lagi, I just can't! I hope you understand what I mean by I just can't. Banyak benda yang I bagi tahu you but I tak bagi tahu orang lain. One day I akan bagi tahu jugak kan? So sabar je la. I just marah the way you cakap tu, macam you accused me. i tak text you sebab I takde creds. I tak text orang lain jugak. Tak selalu pun I text orang lain. Bukan I sombong. Then takkan you nak harapkan I je yang text you dulu kan? Again, I'm so sorry, I salah jugak. Can we make it clear? Okay, nothing happened. Kalau ada yang special, I bagi tahu you, okay!

FATEN

NANAY, i'm happy for you :)

Nanay, lastly you cakap jugakkan pasal dia. I'm happy for you. I tried to help you to find it. But sorry tak dapat. I tebal muka tanye semua orang yang I kenal smpai DIA cakap nak tolong I carikkan number rumah lagi. Haha, DIA buat lawak. Okay. Nanti kita cakap lagi pasal MEREKA. I suke semalam. Finally, kita rasa at the same tima kan? I teringat masa kite cakap apa tah. Tak terungkap lawak dia. Nay, i'll promise, no one will know our secret :) I swear, haha. Never give up, i'll help you okay. Lets start our MISSION!!

ORIGAMI

Tibe-tibe teringat masa I stay kat sekolah. Hi syasya :D Syasya is nana's eldest sister. Well, she's awesome. I tolong haikal amik bola dia yang jatuh kat hockey field, so nana's mother told haikal to give me syasya's origami. Hell yes, syasya pandai buat origami. Nana told me yang syasya tu ex-dm SSP, wow, hebatkan? Sekarang tengah amik A-level. Dah la pandai, hebat pulak tu, gile adore kot kat syasya. Haha. I suke bile tengok dia gaduh dengan haikal. Haikal nak air la, nak keluar la. Thank you for the origami, I simpan kat locker I. Colour brown and purple :) SUKEE. Thank nana, thanks nana's family. :D

TIDUR 12 JAM :D

Haha, ni la activity I kat rumah, bila dah tak tahu nak buat apa, ni la hasilnya. Mata I still merah, letak eye drop tu pun macam takde function kot. Mata belah kanan ni pun macam dah start nak merah. Oh tak nak, I tak nak dua-dua sakit, cepat la. I nak keluar pun susah. Tak kan sampai malam nak pakai shades? Gile la kan, ish. Okay, tadi bangun tidur pun sebab orang text :D Kalau tak sumpah tak bangun. I dapat pimple baru. Wow, great, atas bibir. Abah cakap, banyak berangan lagi, kan dah dapat jerawat. WTV!

BATUK

MINUM AIR ASAM JAWA

PESANAN

CUTI DARI FACEBOOK

Ditaja oleh: MR

THE COLOUR OF FRIENDSHIP

Honestly, I miss our old times. Gather, heart to heart, recess and all stupid stuff we did. Like seriously I miss you guys pretty much. I tak tahu tibe-tibe ingat korang. Okay, rasanye baru semalam kite heart to heart, celebrate my birthday, celebrate itu ini, but in micro second all that gone. SEDIH? Tipu la kan tak sedih, dulu promise macam-macam, but satu pun tak betul. Yea, this is our fault, we failed to manage this problem kan?

NAJWA SHAIFUL

Hi najwa, imy, tak tipu, I'm sorry for all my wrong doings. I try to know you well, but I failed. I'm happy for you sebab you naik classkan, but yea, i sedih sebab dah tak satu class, well, you have a lot of friends in that class, I mean yang betul-betul rapat, but I have no one yang rapat kat class tu. I need to stand by myself la kot, About a month kan kita tak bercakap masa tu, gile pecah rekod tak cakap a month kan? You tak tahu kan, ada one day tu I nangis kronik gile sebab I curik bace diary dyana, yang you tulis tu. I cried so badly, I ingat lagi, masa tu kat mufaz, dyana yang pujuk. I just act like nothing happened and try to accept the fact yang kita gaduh and you tak nak cakap dengan I. I ingat masa I datang block you nak minta maaf, sampai kene halau dengan wani hatta, so what? I ingat masa I datang 2B nak tengok you and CG, but you tak layan pun kan? I ingat masa I datang block you nak amik you outing, but bile sofia cakap, you terus pergi dekat die kan? And sampai bila-bila I ingat benda tu, you tahu masa outing tu, kat angsana I nangis kronik sangat, dalam bus pun, sedih sangat, I tak tahu kenape dengan you I sensitive, emotional and so on. Well kita dah kenal since form one and kite terus baik, I ingat masa kita study nak exam, kita koyakkan gambar Jonas Brother, act I yang koyakkan, and banyak benda kita dah buat, I ingat masa I curik gambar tu kan, haha, macam apa je kan curik gambar. Banyak benda yang I bagitahu you but I tak bagitahu orang lain sebab I percaya kat you, pasal family, pasal feeling and banyak lagikan? I tak tahu la you bagitahu orang ke tak, I bagi tahu you sebab I trust you. Dah 3 tahun kan kawan, I'm sorry pasal Jay, I'm sorry if you rase yang I buat muka every time you cakap pasal Jay, but I tak mean pun, Jealous maybe, I pun tak tahu apa yang I rasa, Tak boleh deny kot, I ingat masa I bagi diary I suruh you tulis, and kat situ kita tahu yang kita bermasalah, I buat banner untuk you just nak support you national kan, malam tu I demam plus malam nak trial I buat banner tu. I ingat masa I datang rumah you last year, and kita sneak out malam, I ingat masa you migrain kat mufaz sebab takut nak pmr, banyak benda yang I ingat kita buat sama-sama. And lastly, I ingat we spent our last week at school together, masa tu takde sapa dah,I ingat kite sorok bawak katil dengan jay, takut warden masuk dorm kan, thank god warden tak nampak kite dalam dorm, I ingat masa your dad bagi duit kan I and last I byebye you sebab you dah nak balik, but before tu kita makan kfc sama-sama. So, a really big sorry and I miss you big time, and maybe we can act like before, just maybe. ILYSFDM

DYANA MAIDIN

Hi dyana, kau? Captain aku, ex-dormmate aku, and banyak benda yang kita dah through togetherkan, aku suka kawan dengan kau. Kau tahu aku tipu but kau tak deny pun apa yang aku tipu tu kan, kau iyekan je semua benda yang aku cakap kan, kau superwoman yang hebat pernah aku jumpa, aku ingat masa aku gaduh dengan najwa, kau la yang ada dekat aku, kau cakap kau boleh jadik kawan aku kan, aku ingat masa kite escape mufaz and kantoi dengan cikgu shamsul, nasib baik dia tak buat apa, aku ingat kita duduk dorm masa activity mufaz, aku ingat kau letak kain basah kat kepala aku sebab najie pesan kat kau. Dyana, kau tak pernah gagal untuk jadi kawan aku. You try to knw me well by reading my own diary kan? kau pernah curik diary aku sebab kau nak tahu apa yang aku rasa, well cara kau nak tahu apa yang aku rasa tu salah, but a good try act. Aku ingat first camp aku dengan kau, kau banyak guide aku kan, masa practice, kau yang buat aku kuat untuk through all things kat sekolah kan? Aku selalu spill apa yang aku rasa kat kan, kau tahu feeling aku kat orang smpai kadang-kadang benda yang aku tak rasa pun kau cakap aku rasa kan? Kau orang yang paling happy go lucky, kau tak pernah takut dengan everything yang kau buat, but bile dah kene point baru takut kan? Aku ingat masa kite kene point kat meeting block, pasal K and banyak lagi. Kita bermasalah gile kat block tu kan wey, lastly, aku nak cakap, aku sayang kat kau, and aku taknak kau pindah, no matter happen kau kene ade dengan aku, okay, ILYSFDM

HANAN MD NOR

Hi hanan. I miss you too, you? A good leader, you selalu ada bile I sedih, happy, geram and so on. Kita susah nak gaduh kan? I ingat masa kita fly dorm sarra kan? I ingat masa you bagi tahu masalah you kat I, you mesti bagitahu apa masalah you dekat I, you trust me, you cakap I can solve your problem kan, mula-mula I tak suka you jadik prefect but I try to accept, that everybody has their own aim kan? Since that, I support you all the time. You selalu defend I even I salah sekali pun. You're a great defender. I tak banyak masalah sangat dengan you kan, so, I hope kita kawan sampai bile-bile. ILYSFDM

SARRA ISMADI

Hi sarra, I try to know you well, sebab you jenis yang takkan bagitahu if orang tak tanye kan, you mystery, I suka kawan dengan you, I ingat masa I bagitahu masalah I dekat you, I fly dorm you, banyak dah benda yang kiet through together, you a good friend, I ingat masa I ajar you hagemaru, and you pujuk I pakai hagemaru tu kan, you kan gay, adam lambert kan? haha, I ingat masa you buat sarra's corner kat dalam locker I, banyak benda yang I ingat, well, you unique, so, ILYSFDM

NADRAH SHAFIK

Hi nadrah, I baik dengan you since last year, sebab I ajak you duduk dengan I kan? Kita selalu tak suka bile nak practicekan, You ingat every pukul 4 je I tidur sebab nak pergi practice. I suke kenal dengan you, sebab you lain dari yang lain kan, you suke every time I try to describe you. Banyak benda yang kite buat kan, you ingat tak masa kite tengok budak comel ketawa, angel or angle haha, kita asik gelakkan orang je kan, biarlah, haha, I ingat masa you called me and told me about someone. I ingat masa you gaduh, and so on. I suke tengok you happy now, I hope you still the old nadrah, yang sopan santun and awesome, I miss you punye gelak :D

ILYSFDM

SOFIA IHSAN

Hi sofia, lama dah kita tak borak-borak kan? You la yang sombong, sofia, I'm sorry for all my wrong doings, okay, I admit I jealous bile you dengan najwa, I tak boleh nak deny feeling tu kan, But I'm happy bile tengok dia happy dengan you, so I okay je, I'm sorry kalau you banyak terase, terase bile I buat muke dekat you ke, I tak mean pun, So, again, I'm sorry, I nak my old sofia, my center, and my everything, ILYSFDM

LOVE, 
FATIN NAJIHA

SAKIT MATA

Nadrah, kita sama sakit mata, jauh gile virus you terbang. Tak la, memang dah nak sakitkan, nak buat macam mana. You punya mata pun yang left je kan, mata I pun, WEIRD. Mata I ni merah gile and berair. Takut kot, so I letak eye drop, and getting better kot.

NIGHT FEVER

Last night, I can't sleep. I don't know why. About 3.15 I pergi toilet then minum bliss, and after that I muntah, I pun tak tahu kenape, I kejutkan kan my mom, my mom suruh makan panadol, so I pun makan, and terus tidur la kan. I bangun pukul 12.34 and looked at mirror. what the hell mata I merah. So, I asked my mom, dia cakap I sakit mata, she told my dad, and we went to clinic. 

DOCTOR: bile awak start sakit mata?

ME: tak tahu, but semamlam pun dah start merah, ingat merah biasa je la kan.

DOCTOR: okay, awak sakit mata ni, nasib baik baru sebelah mata, 

ME: pelik jugak kenape sebelah mata je kan.

DOCTOR: memang la, mula-mula sebelah, nanti dua-dua la tu,

ME: okay

DOCTOR: ke awak ada tengok apa-apa?

ME: hah? takde la, nak tengok apa?

DOCTOR: well okay, so you tak boleh tengok laptop or computer for two days, if not, mata awak lambat baik.

ME: okay :)

I was like what masa doctor tu cakap macam tu, so doctor, thank you and insyaAllah I tak tengok laptop okay, tak janji :D

IMPROVEMENT

Hi, IMPROVEMENT.

I suke, haha. Dah banyak topic, dah banyak cakap. Excited, Happy, and totally AWESOME :D

LIFE

LIFE,

is much like a song. In the beginning there's mystery, in the end there's confirmation but in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worth while.

Well, I think, I through the middle part :)

I DON'T WANT MISS A THING

I could stay awake just 

to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while

you are sleeping

While far away and dreaming

I could spend my life

in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost 

in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent

with you is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

the sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering 

what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing 

Then I kiss you eyes 

And thank God we're together

And I just wanna stay with you

In this moment forever

Forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

20th DECEMBER 2010

SUKE, SUKE, SUKE.

Yeah, I'm happy :D

WAN NURAISHAH WAN MANSOR

Hello nanay, this is my deskmate for next year, maybe, just maybe. Hahaha, okay. Nanay, I miss you. Yeah, kata nak hang out, but tak dapat-dapat tarikh yang sesuai. Kau la, busy je, well jadual kita lain-lain kan? Okay, next week aku promise aku free. Aku yang datang rumah kau okay. We make our day. Seriously, aku ingat something, kau ingatkan aku ada beritahu kau somethingkan? Nanti aku cerita lagi okay, well, benda tu dah teruk kot. Aku ingat masa kita pegang bunga manggar tu. And kau ingat tak aku tumpahkan 100plus kat atas bed kau masa kau tengah tidur? Kesian kau, kau terus bangunkan? Kau ingat tak masa aku pujuk kau jumpa I? Kau sangat stubborn, taknak jumpe diakan? Benda yang paling aku ingat, atas stage, kita dance sebelah-sebelah, masa miss U. Dah la tak dengar lagu, Kita dance macam orang gila kot kat atas stage tu, aku pandang kau and kau pun pandang aku. Lagu tu main balik and again kita kene dance lagi kan? Ugh, benda yang paling bengang aku pernah buat. Kau ingat tak masa aku marah kat dia, kau yang calm kan aku, kau cakap, no matter what, dia still kawan kau, and kau kene ingat tu. So, I really apprieciate you, thanks for all the advise, and thanks for the memories. I promise to come to your house.

HANAN, BE TOUGH, OKAY?

Hanan, I'm here for you. Chill okay. Ala, kejap je ni. I try to help you. It's okay to spill everything. Hanan, I can lend my ears for you, okay. SO, sabar je okay. It will be okay.

A FRIEND OF MINE

HeyNAJIHA,


FORGET THE PAST
IT WILL MAKE YOU
A BETTER PERSON.
AND HONESTLY,
I MISS YOU
I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT I MEAN
AND I HOPE THAT MAYBE,
JUST MAYBE
WE CAN BE LIKE
THE OLD TIMES.



BY: SOFEA



Well, yasmin, I hope the same too. Thank you for you care. I miss your stupid faces:D

NUR AQILAH KHIRRUDI

Hey, SAFE JOURNEY!

Take care and don't forget to buy me a birthday present! Well, do your homework, and have fun with your family. Take pictures as many as you can.


Love,
FATEN NAJIHA.

WHO I AM

I am fifteen years young, not even a n adult yet. I cannot drive a car or even vote. I have completed on nine years of school. It will be two years in Sekolah Tun Fatimah. I am only fifteen years young, and yet I have seen and experienced so much. So much, that it makes the future seem boring.



I have tasted the bad. I have broken hearts. I have broken law. I have confessed to someone that " I adore you ". I have played with fire. I have lied and cheated, and I have been, been caught. I have gone over the speed limit. I have skipped MUFAZ, assembly and and, prep. I have created mischief. I have made people cry. I have made mistakes.



I have tasted the ugly. I have had my heart broken. I have witnessed close friends come out. I have witnessed closer friends struggle with self-mutilation. I have had fights with my best friends for petty reason and I hope she can still be my best friends. I have created drama as well as participated in it. I have had panic attacks and social anxiety and been the victim of mild depression. I have made people hate me and I don't mind. I have made people love and appreciate me. Well, of course I have used the words " I HATE YOU " too many times.



I have witnessed and tasted the good, the bad, and the ugly in just fifteen years. I regret countless things I have said and done. I am rotten to my core for all the horrible details of my fifteen years of life.



But this is not the matters.



What matters is the good. What matters are the times I have listened, the times I have offered my shoulders to a sobbing friend. What matters is the difference I made in someone's life, whether helping with homework, sharing a smile, or calling just to say hello. What matters is the hard work I do and the recognition I receive. What matters is the memories I have made, the laughs, I have shared, the tears, I have poured, and the bonds I have kept. What matters is the strong and unique individual I have become. What matters is the exemplary, mature woman I have become by learning from my mistakes when I was still an ignorant little girl in the past fifteen years of my life. What matters I love my friends. What matters I changed the world, maybe? Well, all the matters is the good :)


P/S : I'm sorry to all my friends, and I love you guys so much!

I'M TIRED

Yeah, memang aku tunggu kau malam tadi, so, aku penat!

SEPI

Wah, tadi I tengok sepi lagi, I don't know, dah berapa kali tengok, and yeah, I cried. Again1 Apatah yang best sangat kat movie tu pun I tak tahu.


Bisikku pada bulan,
Kembalikan temanku, kekasihku, syurgaku,
Tanpanya,
Sunyi menemaniku,
Sepi memelukku,
Bulan jangan biar siang,
Biar malam sepi sepertiku.

Well ni je yang I hafal, tu pun tak sure betul ke tak.Tak hafal sangat pun. But yea, sumpah cerita ni seronok!

SUPERMAN

Well, this is what I called SUPERMAN, "Fatin nak keluar jugak ke dengan dia tu? Tak payah la, nanti kalau dia jual fatin macam mana? macam mana nanti? result tak keluar la, if dapat 8A, tak dapat la camera tu! " So okay, thanks for your care, if not, mesti something happened to me. Yela, feeling Abah kan selalu betul, hello, meet my SUPERMAN, my DAD :)

Adik, get a LIFE!

I'm so sick with my little brother. Huh? You're such a busy body. Adik, stop poking your nose in my bussiness. You just acting like a pornstar. Stupid. I told you already that i have my own work to do, can you get it? PLEASE, leave my room. I don't need you now. Okay!

Homework,

Wow, i just started my homework. Sumpah penat. Yea, nota sejarah sangat memenatkan. But i kena juga siapkan. Kalau tak sampai bila-bila tak siap. Fuhh!

EUPHORIAN :)

This is our planned for our batch day.

Venue : Star hills
Date : 7th and 8th of December

Alright, kita akan berjalan ke Tebrau City, Danga Bay and so on. Anything just text with NURUL AQILAH SAMSUL KAHAR. Okay.

8th December 2010

Qiella texted me, she told me about batch day. She planned to celebrate at JB. So we disscused.

meqiella

wey
sapa ni?
qiela
oh, sorry, contact number hilang la
nak join tak 8/12
KL eh?
tak lah, ada yang turun JB
oh, iye ke? tah, aku boleh je nak join, pergi mane je?
venue, tebrau city, danga bay, bukit indah, kau rasa mana best?
aku rase tebrau city and danga bay
sleepover nak?
aku tak kisah, aku dah cakap dengan nanay dah
aku ingat nak booked resort
okay, aku follow je, but berapa orang?
tak sure lagi berapa orang, dekat austin hills, nak tak?
okay, aku tak kisah

Qiela called me, she asked me that austin hills is so expensive, so she told me how about star hills, I told her. I'm okay with it.

post dekat fb sapa nak join contact aku
okay, nanti aku post, okay.

konklusinya, ada batch day dekat JB.

NOOR ARINA NOOR AZLEE

Aryna, thanks a lot. Kau banyak tolong aku masa aku susah. Tah, aku tak tahu nak cakap kat sapa masa tu.Maybe you're the right person on that time. And bukan masa tu je, kau selalu ada masa aku ada masalah pasal benda tu kan. Thanks for the advise, you're such a great woman. SUPERWOMAN :) Nasib baik kau ada, kau guide aku, kau slow talk dengan aku. Thanks for the care, thanks for the talk, I really appreciate. I hope kau akan bagi lagi nasihat kat aku ok.

my BOOTILICIOUS :)

nanay : hey
me : oh, hi, nanay :)
nanay : fatin, hi, oh aku kat kl ni.
me : yeah, aku tahu, how long will you be there?
nanay : this sunday, I balik la.
me : good then, cepat la balik, excited ni :D
nanay : aku pun :D
me : kau pergi KL jalan mane je doh?
nanay : aku tidur kat hotel istana, jalan? aku jalan tempat biase la,
me : well ok, nay, jadik tak plan kite next week?
nanay : ?????????????????????

so, aku pun tak tahu jadi ke tak plan tu, tapi dah plan dah, but nanay dah cakap, so tunggu je confirmation daripada BELIAU!

SHASHA,

THANK YOU FOR THE BOOKS!

Y

Okay, I want to tell you this. Firstly, i'm sorry. She wants you so badly and she told me so. Ya, I don't mind and I don't care. Wtv. I'm sorry for ignoring you for some days. I just don't want something happen. So, again, I'm sorry and thank you for everything :)

SARRA ISMADI, thank you :)

Malam tadi video call dengan sarra,
comel, haha, selebet je. Sarra tu yang macam biskut,
nak kate orang pulak. Btw, thank you ya <3

Kepulangan dari sekolah.

Abah sampai sekolah 6.40, I cried.
Kak Ila punye pasal la ni. That was so sensitive issue kot.
Kak Diyana hantar, btw, bye and study smart.
Sampai rumah terus mandi and tengok tv kejap.
9.15 da tidur. Gile hebat.
Bangun tah pukul bpe taktau, Haha:D

PEOPLE COME AND GO

Accept the facts, that she's gone.
No matter what, life must go on.
I just so hard thinking back about the past.
Thanks for everything.