WHO I AM

I am fifteen years young, not even a n adult yet. I cannot drive a car or even vote. I have completed on nine years of school. It will be two years in Sekolah Tun Fatimah. I am only fifteen years young, and yet I have seen and experienced so much. So much, that it makes the future seem boring.



I have tasted the bad. I have broken hearts. I have broken law. I have confessed to someone that " I adore you ". I have played with fire. I have lied and cheated, and I have been, been caught. I have gone over the speed limit. I have skipped MUFAZ, assembly and and, prep. I have created mischief. I have made people cry. I have made mistakes.



I have tasted the ugly. I have had my heart broken. I have witnessed close friends come out. I have witnessed closer friends struggle with self-mutilation. I have had fights with my best friends for petty reason and I hope she can still be my best friends. I have created drama as well as participated in it. I have had panic attacks and social anxiety and been the victim of mild depression. I have made people hate me and I don't mind. I have made people love and appreciate me. Well, of course I have used the words " I HATE YOU " too many times.



I have witnessed and tasted the good, the bad, and the ugly in just fifteen years. I regret countless things I have said and done. I am rotten to my core for all the horrible details of my fifteen years of life.



But this is not the matters.



What matters is the good. What matters are the times I have listened, the times I have offered my shoulders to a sobbing friend. What matters is the difference I made in someone's life, whether helping with homework, sharing a smile, or calling just to say hello. What matters is the hard work I do and the recognition I receive. What matters is the memories I have made, the laughs, I have shared, the tears, I have poured, and the bonds I have kept. What matters is the strong and unique individual I have become. What matters is the exemplary, mature woman I have become by learning from my mistakes when I was still an ignorant little girl in the past fifteen years of my life. What matters I love my friends. What matters I changed the world, maybe? Well, all the matters is the good :)


P/S : I'm sorry to all my friends, and I love you guys so much!