I am apprehensive about having a friend like you,
though, because a friendship like this involve
opening up, exposing my heart and mind and soul.
Doing this means trusting the person,
and with trust comes risk-
risk of losing, of being rejected, of getting hurt.
I know what it's like to be hurt, betrayed,
and abandoned by a friend.
But I thing, you're different.
Of course, I have been wrong before.
I have been sure that I've found a lifelong friend,
a soul mate, only to discover that my heart had huge blinders on,
and the "friend" actually was a foe.
No matter how much I pretend I don't care,
I am afraid of getting hurt again.
I don't want to be reduced to hiding behind
a vacant smile,
so as not to offend anymore.
I don't want to have to pretend I'm
someone I'm not just to make people happy.
I hate the awful, closedin feeling I get when I can't
be myself.
But I am myself around you :)
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